Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Let Down

Well, as you can see from the title that things didn't turn out to be what I had hoped (See previous post comments to get idea of whets going on). She was very sweet about it all and extremely positive. Unfortunately, she isn't into women. *sigh*

What can one do... She means a lot to me as a friend, and all can I do is smile and support her decisions. Oh well, I am sure there are other opportunities in the distance.


Miz BoheMia said...

I am sorry to hear about that... At least it is better than if she was into women and then said no, you know? At least the gender you desire cannot be controlled... but I am sure that it meant a lot to her.

I am hetero and had a close girlfriend when a teenager. She was Venezuelan and the latino side of each of us clicked and she was a great friend. For as long as I had known her she was into guys.

Once, I was changing in front of her, getting ready to leave and hang out, and she started to joke around and tease me and say "Oooh, loking hot! Watch it or I'm gonna jump you!" She was pretty explosive and outspoken and for her to say something like that was normal.

Then, some time later she came out and confessed to being bi. It didn't faze me and the above incident stood out to me and it actually meant a lot. I had a horrible body image then, hated myself, my body, me naked... and to have caused such a strong reaction from someone so close who could envision being attracted to that which I hated so much, me, meant a lot... no sexual feelings for me but yes for her and that is what made it mean more, ironically...

shayna said...

Dang it!!! Dang it!!! Dang it!!!

Leigh... I was so hoping this would turn out GREAT. Was it my song? :(

Listen, just from the short time I have known you in the blogging world, you seem to be a great gal. I hate this for you... but I know that Miss Right is out there... just waiting for her mystery woman (Leigh) to sweep her off her feet.

Dang it!!!!

Leigh said...

MiZ B. - Thank you, you are right... better to be turned down because of gender rather than personal attributes. It did mean a lot to her, and she was so appreciative of everything. Thank you for your input and experience... it helps to know that it does make people think about what sexuality really means and the different angles it can be approached.

Shayna - Your song worked! She loved the CD and has listened to it twice already! As much as I grumble about not believing in such things like "Ms.Right", I can't help but always be optimistic that possibly she may be out there.

weirsdo said...

Sorry about that. But at least you know now.
And what Shayna said: you seem to be a really neat person, and I'm sure you will meet someone soon.

Alice: In Wonderland or Not said...

awww leigh...hugs....
you will find your princess some day.

I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you has hoped. Tomorrow is another day and thank god their are other days.

Leigh said...

Weirsdo- Thank you, I'm sure things will be as they are intended to be :)

Alice- Thanks for hugs... I've dated a few princesses in my day, and this girl was anything but. Very sweet, and humble. I know what to look for now!

The ZenFo Pro said...

Oh chica, that sucks. I've had several G/L friends experience similar moments. At least she was cool about it.